Looking down, can see the escalator, steep and sharp. Feeling panic, don´t want to get on, don´t trust myself . Is this one of theese days when I will make it or when it finally goes to hell. Too late, people are already behind me, must get on.
My legs are shaking, try to balance on the narrow step. I could either fall down on my face onto the sharp steel or get too close to the yellow stripe and get stuck and my heels will get squezeed and my clothes will drag me down.
I am in the middle now, my legs are heavy and my stomach is revolving. Am I gonna fall and die this time? Try to not look down, try insteed to look at the people I am meeting, Blank faces. do they see that I am a nutcase, all these people that seem to handle this so easy?
Should I dare to put my hand on the rolling rubber railing? No, stories from my childhood comes back. The one about a boy or a girl that got caught and was strangled.
Almost there, the terryfying step to get off, is this when I will finally get smashed .
For my sister
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